The Illusion of Separation: Why We Were Never Apart from Source
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There's a moment that changes everything. Not a dramatic moment necessarily. Sometimes it's quiet. Sometimes it's just a light bulb going off in a classroom while someone's talking about sound waves.
That was mine.
I was twenty-five, studying sound engineering at what was then Musician’s Technical Institute in Minneapolis. We were learning about vibration and sound waves—how they work, their properties, how they can be manipulated to produce sound. And in the middle of that discussion, something clicked.
Everything is vibration.
I’d already learned in science class that all things are created from the same atomic materials. I’d wondered for years: if everything is made from the same subatomic particles, how do we end up with so many different types of realities? How does the same fundamental material create a rock, a tree, a human being, God itself?
The answer was vibration. Frequency. Different vibrations of the same essential material.
By that time, I’d already met my spirit guide. I’d already felt the overwhelming presence of God's love in meditation—that cellular, all-consuming love that I knew was real. But I didn't have the science to explain it.
Until that moment in Minneapolis.
Science and Spirituality Fit Together Perfectly
Here’s what I realized: God wasn't separate from science. God was the science.
God was found in those subatomic particles. He was the Source, the fundamental material from which everything was created. And if we are literally made from Him, then it is physically impossible to be separate from Him.
That's not poetry. That's physics.
From that moment on, I started looking at science not as the opposite of spirituality, but as the proof of it. And you know what I discovered? They fit together beautifully. Quantum physics, vibration, frequency, consciousness—it all points to the same truth that mystics have been saying for thousands of years: We are never separate from Source.
But there's more to the story.
The Illusion Created by Fear and Ego
Even though we are physically inseparable from God—literally made of His substance—I realized something else: Spiritually, ego creates an illusory separation.
Fear creates ego. The ego creates the sense of separation. And that sense of separation is what allows lower-frequency beings (what some call demons) to have power over us.
I remember watching a paranormal show where an exorcist discussed possession. And I thought: How is that possible? If we are divine, if we’re made of God, how can we be possessed?
The answer came to me immediately. They can’t possess you if you’re connected to God. They can only possess you if you believe you’re separate from God. And how do they make you believe that? Through fear.
When fear kicks in, your ego kicks in. Your ego goes into overdrive—fight or flight. It’s trying to protect you from a threat. But here’s the thing: Your soul is a fragment of God’s divine being. All things are made from His body. So all you have to do is raise your vibration—reconnect to that truth—and these beings become harmless.
I know this from experience. As far back as I can remember, I used to wake up in bed, paralyzed, feeling like there was an evil entity present. My instinctive reaction was always to pray to God and ask protection from the Archangel Michael. Then it would pass, and I’d go back to sleep.
I was raising my vibration before I even understood what that meant. I was choosing trust over fear. I was remembering my connection to Source.
Why We Came Here: Soul Contracts and the Big Bang
But to truly understand the illusion of separation, you have to know why we’re here at all.
Before we incarnate into this existence, we create something called a soul contract. And to understand a soul contract, you have to understand Earth’s proper function: It is a school.
This is the third dimension—the physical realm. And souls incarnate here to experience what infinity cannot experience alone.
Think about it: God knows everything. God sees everything. But by the nature of infinity, there is no growth. There is no one to compete with. There is no romantic love, no camaraderie, no betrayal, no victory, no defeat. How does an infinite being understand being cold? Being hungry? The joy of mastering something through hard work? The growth that comes from failure?
It cannot. Not directly.
So Source did something extraordinary: It splintered itself into many shards and sent them out into the universe. This was the Big Bang. Those shards are our souls. And now our souls are on a mission to learn and grow until they reunite with Source—but this time, enriched by experience.
Here’s the beautiful part: Even though we are shards, we are still connected. Like a parent and child. Everything we feel, everything we experience, everything we learn—when we sleep, it’s uploaded to our higher self and shared with Source. Our experiences are how God learns what courage feels like, what fear feels like, what victory and defeat taste like.
The Soul Contract: Amnesia as Necessity
When a soul agrees to incarnate, a council of higher-dimensional beings asks: What do you want to learn? Maybe you want to learn about betrayal. You may want to learn about resilience. You may want to learn how to break through tribalism and raise the vibration of consciousness itself.
The council looks at the world and says, "We need more nurturing energy for nature." Whatever the universe requires. If your soul agrees, then there can be an agreement for your incarnation, and a Soul Contract is formed.
With the universe agreeing to put in front of you the challenges you have asked for, and you agreeing to play the role that they request.
And if you agree, you accept something crucial: Amnesia.
You come into this world blind to your divine nature. Because if you came in remembering that you are God, remembering all your infinite knowledge and power, you couldn't do what you came here to do. You couldn't experience. You couldn't learn.
This is why the world is so difficult. This is why it can be unfair. It's supposed to be.
Tribalism as Resistance Training
And tribalism? Tribalism is one of the primary forms of resistance.
Think of it like lifting weights. If you only lift Styrofoam, you'll never get stronger. You need resistance. You need weight. You need something to push against.
Tribalism—the conditioning that tells you to belong to a tribe, to see “us vs. them,” to doubt yourself and trust external authority—is the resistance that makes your soul stronger.
But here's the crucial part: You're not here to wage war against tribalism. You're here to transcend it.
And right now, at this moment in 2025, the planetary energy is at an inflection point. The rules are changing. The resistance is intensifying, yes—but that's because we're being called to grow even stronger.
This is why evil isn't all bad. This is why tribalism isn't all destructive. They are necessary. Without them, there would be no growth. Without them, you could never become a Sovereign Soul.
The Path Back: Just Be. Trust.
So how do you break through the amnesia? How do you start to remember that you were never separate from Source?
Just Be. Trust.
Learn to make space in your head from the constant chatter—that's the voice of your ego. Learn to trust the small voice that comes from your heart area. That is your soul speaking.
Learn to trust the quiet voices that come from directly above you. Those are your spirit guides.
Learn to trust the energy that gives you a gentle nudge in one direction or the other. Those are your guardian angels.
But you have to choose to listen. If a vibration feels wrong, don't do it. Remember: You are a sovereign being. You have freedom of will. This is your journey. Even if you make mistakes—and you will, because mistakes are how we learn the most—fear not. Your actions will not destroy the world.
"Mistakes are the Portals to Discovery,” James Joyce.
As you master your purpose and push past all the tribalism and noise of this existence, you start to see through the illusion. You begin to remember.
The Journey Through Darkness
But I need to be honest with you about something: The journey isn't easy. And it isn't linear.
There are stages you'll go through that will test everything you think you know about connection to Source.
One of those stages is called the Dark Night of the Soul. This is where you start breaking down the ego's negative energy and begin transforming it into an ally of your cause. This process can be painful. It can last for years. You'll question everything. You'll feel like you're dismantling yourself piece by piece. You might find yourself clearing baggage even from a previous incarnation.
And then, after the Dark Night, comes the Void.
During the Void, I felt very lonely. I felt like I had gone backwards. That intense love energy I had felt in my early meditations—the cellular, overwhelming presence of God—seemed gone. I couldn't feel it anymore. I thought I'd lost my connection.
But I later learned this is also by design. Once you shrug off the ego, you have to learn to stand alone. You have to learn self-reliance. Your guides hang back. They make you figure it out on your own. It’s terrifying. It feels like abandonment.
But it's not. It's preparation.
Because when you finally awaken from the Void, when you emerge on the other side, you reach Sovereignty. Your vibration spikes. It becomes like a shield against negativity. You have literally died spiritually and been reborn.
"Jesus answered him, 'Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.' Nicodemus said to him, 'How can a man be born when he is old? Can he enter a second time into his mother's womb and be born?' Jesus answered, 'Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.'" > — John 3:3–6
And that's when something extraordinary happens: You will never feel lonely again.
Not because the journey is over. Not because you've "arrived." But because you've remembered—at a cellular, unshakeable level—that you were never separate from Source. Not for a moment. Not ever.
Loneliness as Your Compass
So if you're reading this and you feel lonely right now—if you feel disconnected, if you feel like you've lost your way—know this: It might be precisely where you're supposed to be.
You might be in the Dark Night. You might be in the Void. And if you are, that loneliness is not a sign that you're doing it wrong. It's a sign that you're doing the work.
But once you've transcended into a Sovereign Soul, loneliness becomes your compass. When it creeps in, it's a signal. It's your soul saying, "Come back." Just Be. Trust. Remember.
You were never apart from Source. Not for a moment. Not ever.
The illusion was always just that—an illusion. And now you’re waking up.
Reflection: When do you feel most connected to Source? When do you feel most separate? If you’re in the Dark Night or the Void right now, what would it mean to trust that this loneliness is part of your awakening, not evidence that you’ve failed?
